I know what it is to hate someone. I have hated various people in my life. The one I hated the most was my ex. When you have been cheated on and left, with no control or way to stop what is happening, you get angry, you hate. I hated her. I wanted her to die. I wanted to kill her and her man with my bare hands, and believe me when I say I could of done it. I am so glad that God is big enough to listen to stuff like that... That hate ate away at my insides like caustic acid. I put on a fairly good show when I was going through that mess but there is a lot I never showed... That pain, that hate, it damaged my relationship with God big time and just the last little while have I even begun coming back from all the damage that hate inflicted on me. I felt there was nothing left to live for. Satan got me off by myself in a corner, a prison built of hate, and anger, and discouragement I had built for myself and just put the boots to me, curbstomping me at every turn. I just lost the whole point to life. I tried to kill the pain, even thought of suicide... but the pain of the thought of my grieving mother, what it would do to the ones I loved stopped me. I could not put them through something like that when it was not their fault. They did not deserve the pain, anger and hate that I was living for and that is exactly what would of happened, it would of all transferred to them. Instead of being mine, it would now of become theirs. I could not do that to them. So I drank to kill the pain when no one was around, I tried to numb the pain and the hate inside me. It was only temporary. I had to get refocused.
I know I was going to church, going to work, and there are times that were real. But there was times that I was just an angry, hateful person putting on a very good persona. I am not proud of this. But I did it to survive. It was the only thing I knew how to get on with what I perceived to be life. Inside I was Jeckel and Hyde at least 60% of the time. I honestly don't ever think we will be rid of Jeckel, the old man. But at least I know I am on the right track now.
You know what really turned me around? God got me looking through His eyes instead of my own. I was looking inward, everything was My hurt, My anger, My hate, I had a reason to hate right, look at what had happened to me. It was right because I made it right. That did not mean that it was God. I justified my hate that because my ex committed adultery I had a Reason to hate her. God said Hate sin so I hated my ex with all I was worth. That is where I went wrong. I Hated the sinner WITH the sin. I hated her and what she did to me and after all I was right, right? NO.
On the way back from Winnipeg when God said to me, would you rather have her back, or have her in my kingdom, having her back with blood on my hands or having her in heaven, I wrestled with God on that soooo much. It took most of the trip to come to terms with that. What would you rather have? What would you know GOD would rather have? And if you want to follow God where does that leave you? If you say that you love God as much as you do, there is ONLY one choice. This is what I had to deal with. I conceded to God I would rather have my ex in heaven.
This is what God said to me regarding hating people...
In spite of all the pain doled out upon you by the one you hate, they are still MY CHILD. I CREATED them, and only I have the right to hate or love. If you are truly my child you must love them for no other reason than I have made them and the are mine, therefore you are to love them the way I love them and no Less. Even the drunk laying in the gutter with vomit all over him is still MADE IN MY IMAGE. Who are you to hate what I Love? I told you to Love your enemies, I commanded it for this very reason. You have no choice in who to love or hate. I have told you to love All. If you cannot love the least of these in my kingdom, how can you love ME? You see through the eyes of hate, anger and disappointment. I see through the eyes of Love, peace and Restoration. Why do you think I made Hosea marry Gomer, a prostitute who constantly was running around breaking his heart, Consider the anger and hate he bore, yet was without sin. You don't think he had some questions for ME? But that was to demonstrate My love for Israel how Israel constantly turned away from MY love to go to other Gods, as an adulterer goes to other men. There was a purpose in it.
There is a purpose with every relationship you are in. And just because YOU don't see it, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. That is not your call. It is God's. You are to love your enemies, love those that spitefully misuse you. You are to turn the other cheek, be the example of God's love, even if she does not. You are to be the High Priest in your house, the one in tune with God when all others are not. This is not my job description. It is God's. Is it fun? Well no... but when you are under that covering, you are under God, and that is exactly where you are supposed to be. You must see people with the eyes of God, not yours. When they lash out, you must see it for what it is. Satan is testing your relationships, and every time you concede ground you give him that territory. Satan is slowly grinding away at you like a knife on a wheel, and unless you move from hate to love, God's love, an action not a feeling, and choose love instead of hate, every time you clash with others, Satan is trying to grind you down to nothing. Don't give him the satisfaction. You are a child of God, the son of the Most High, Seated in the Heavenlies, RIGHT NOW, beside God, You are HIS SON (Daughter). He is well pleased with you because of who you are, not what you do, Hate will rot you out from your insides and will wreck your relationship with God. You know as well as I do that He says, if you cannot love your brother (or sister) who you see on earth, how can you love ME? or what about when God says if you cannot forgive how can I forgive you?
Broken relationship on this earth between people breaks relationship with God as well. Why do you think we need communion? Why the need to get right with our brothers and sisters before we have communion together? Because it is impossible to have a pure relationship with God when we are hating someone on earth. To some extent it will damage our relationship with God, it has to, because we are not where we should be with the people around us. What comes around, goes around, yes brother, but it also goes the same way for hate. You sow hate, you will reap hate. You sow unforgiveness it will reap unforgiveness. That means that you must learn to sow love, peace, and restoration, and you will sow the same. How can you finish right if you start wrong? You must always remember, it is not her you have to worry about when you stand in front of the Most High God. It is you and your actions.
Life is not easy. That is why Jesus called this life our Cross. He never said it would be easy but He would give us peace and joy for the journey if we followed Him. We are surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses who are cheering us on brother, people who have endured so much more than we have. They call to us to finish the race well. People who had their own personal Hell's to deal with. Off the top of my head:
Corrie Ten Boom - watched the demise of her sister living in a Nazi death camp, living with people she could of easily hated, but instead loved because God loved them and sought to share God's love with all in that camp instead of hate.
Christians during Nero's reign... where do you think the gospel would of gone if it just stayed in Rome as Christians stayed in catacombs hating the Romans for turning them into candle sticks and feeding them to the lions?
If anyone had a reason to hate, Joseph for what his brothers had done to him, selling him to egypt and then going to jail falsely accused because of his master's wife. Now there's a reason to be bitter... but look at where he ended up....
A man I personally knew in P.A. Max security prison who was daily beat for his faith but persevered and turned to God daily for strength even though he has no chance of parole, ever, with no need to turn to religion to get out, because he never will, and to love the men who beat him mercilessly and end up leading them to Christ. There is a man with a chance to hate. But chose love instead.
There are many, many others, Paul had been beaten and left for dead many times, the scars he refers to on his body, does he hate the ones who did that to him? No, he loves them and prays for them. Stephen praying for those who stoned him...
Take a good read of any of the people in Fox's book of martyrs... did they wonder why God had them where they were? You bet they had doubts... but they did not love their lives (themselves) unto death because they saw there was a greater purpose when they saw through they eyes of Christ. They saw LOVE not hate... brother, you must go to the Love. God is Love and there is only one thing to cast out that kind of hate is God's kind of Love. Perfect Love casts out fear, but it also casts out Hate my brother. You must stop looking at people with earthly eyes, but with heavenly eyes... not what they are right now, but who they are in the heavenlies to God, and what they might become if they had love sown into their lives.
I know that stepping out and loving is a huge risk, but Look at the risk Christ paid for us... He lost His LIFE. Anything less than that is mercy and grace. I am convinced, the only way to turn your relationships around is to stop sowing hate and start sowing love. No matter how hard that sounds and it probably sounds huge... I remember me calling forgiveness towards my ex a "Mountain". You really want to know who took me over that mountain? You already know. It wasn't me. It was God. Him and Him alone, through forgiveness and His love.
I am not saying this is easy, and the last thing I want to do is give out pat answers, but I want to encourage that with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. Even though some of your relationships look like a write offs, God sees it differently. He has you there for a reason. The fact that you are still there here through all you have gone through is a testament to his mercy and grace. If you checked out (in a bad way) or left now, all the ground and the testimony of God's work in your life would be bragging rights for Satan. I am reminded of two songs by Casting Crowns, if you haven't listened to them I encourage you to. I have to tell you, at my lowest point worship music was the only thing, Like Saul when David played for him, that calmed my soul and made me feel like I was near God. I encourage you to fill your ears with worship, you need God's truth saturating your soul, maybe even some time to cry, to let out the pain.
Monday, April 30, 2012
If I Was Jesus
If I Was Jesus, I'd have some real long hair
A robe and some sandals, is exactly what I'd wear
I'd be the guy at the party, turnin' water to wine
Yeah me and my disciples, we'd have a real good time.
Ooh and I'd lay my life down for you (woooooh)
And I show you who's the boss (woooooh)
I'd forgive you and adore you
While I was hangin' on your cross
If I Was Jesus. I'd have some friends that were poor
I'd run around with the wrong crowd, man I'd never be bored
Then I'd heal me a blind man, get myself crucified
By politicians and preachers, who got somethin' to hide.
Ooh and I'd lay my life down for you (woooooh)
And I show you who's the boss (woooooh)
I'd forgive you and adore you
While I was hangin' on your cross
If I Was Jesus.
If I Was Jesus, I'd come back from the dead
And I'd walk on some water, just to mess with your head
I know your dark little secrets, I'd look you right in the face
And I'd tell you I love you, with Amazing Grace.
Ooh and I'd lay my life down for you (woooooh)
And I show you who's the boss (woooooh)
I'd forgive you and adore you
While I was hangin' on your cross
If I Was Jesus.
If I Was Jesus.
A robe and some sandals, is exactly what I'd wear
I'd be the guy at the party, turnin' water to wine
Yeah me and my disciples, we'd have a real good time.
Ooh and I'd lay my life down for you (woooooh)
And I show you who's the boss (woooooh)
I'd forgive you and adore you
While I was hangin' on your cross
If I Was Jesus. I'd have some friends that were poor
I'd run around with the wrong crowd, man I'd never be bored
Then I'd heal me a blind man, get myself crucified
By politicians and preachers, who got somethin' to hide.
Ooh and I'd lay my life down for you (woooooh)
And I show you who's the boss (woooooh)
I'd forgive you and adore you
While I was hangin' on your cross
If I Was Jesus.
If I Was Jesus, I'd come back from the dead
And I'd walk on some water, just to mess with your head
I know your dark little secrets, I'd look you right in the face
And I'd tell you I love you, with Amazing Grace.
Ooh and I'd lay my life down for you (woooooh)
And I show you who's the boss (woooooh)
I'd forgive you and adore you
While I was hangin' on your cross
If I Was Jesus.
If I Was Jesus.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Fellowship of Believers
I have been really stirred in my heart lately on the subject of how important the fellowship of believers really is. God designed us to be like coals, to be set afire in the presence of other believers. When we move ourselves out of fellowship and outside the fire, as it were, we find that our light grows dim, and that is when satan comes at us. Even in the midst of spiritual battle in community, we can find we can grow discouraged, how much more is that darkness when we are by ourselves. Like a coal that is pulled out of a fire and left to cool, the light goes out, we become insignificant to the light and warmth of Jesus in our world, and we find we are truly alone. It is when we come back into the fellowship, that we find that even though it may be uncomfortable to someone who, like myself tends to be a bit of a loner, and even, yes a bit antisocial, finds myself encouraged and "lit" by other believers. It is true what is said "surround yourself with people you aspire to be like" and you will be like them. Just as we are to surround ourselves, and bathe ourselves in Jesus Christ's presence, we become like Him, so when we surround ourselves with positive, Godly people, we become like them as well. Jesus said Himself "wherever two or more are gathered, in My Name, I am there, in the midst of them". So true is this statement. This does not discount intimate worship and time with God alone on our sojourn's with Christ, but does speak to our need for other believers in our lives for victorious Christian living. Jesus said to "take up your cross and follow me daily" but then we find that fellowship with other believers helps to also share the burden of that cross. We are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, here on earth, and in the heavenlies, we are to be encouraged that we are not alone, unless we choose to be. I suppose the imagery of the coals and the fire really was impressed on me again, when up at Tobin Lake at Wilderness Ministries I found myself staring into lots of campfires, playing guitar and meditating on the goodness of God. One last story before I go on this topic.
A man had not shown up to church for a while, found that there were too many hypocrites there, had been slighted too many times, and generally had become cynical about the whole thing. He decided it was better for him to stay at home, by his warm fire than to go out into the winter for church. One day, the pastor shows up at his home. The man lets the pastor in, offers him a warm cup of tea and a sit by the fire. Concerned, the pastor inquires into why the man hasn't been to church and the man shares his views. Quietly as they are both sipping their tea, the pastor places his cup down, and removes the poker from the fireplace. He removes a single coal from the fire off to the side and sits back down. As they quietly sip their tea, they watch as the coal's light fades until they cannot see any light but ash. The pastor then moves the coal back into the pile of coals and they watch as the coal starts to burn again, and glow like the other coals as the flames warm the room. The pastor finishes his tea, thanks the man, and leaves. The man shows up to church the very next Sunday.
I love this story, and I have to admit I am readily more interested in allegory. A couple things we can glean, like the pastor, we have to be ready and willing to reach out to those we do not see in church, to care enough to give them a call or take them for coffee so that they feel like they do indeed belong, are missed, and are loved. People will do what they want, but we must not leave a man behind. Love in action speaks louder than any words. I believe it was St. Francis of Assissi that said "Preach the Gospel continually. If necessary, use words." We are to be the salt and light to this world. We need to encourage one another and love each other, and by saving someone else, we find that we end up saving ourselves as we draw near to Jesus, the ultimate saviour.
God Bless You All Real Good! Moose
A man had not shown up to church for a while, found that there were too many hypocrites there, had been slighted too many times, and generally had become cynical about the whole thing. He decided it was better for him to stay at home, by his warm fire than to go out into the winter for church. One day, the pastor shows up at his home. The man lets the pastor in, offers him a warm cup of tea and a sit by the fire. Concerned, the pastor inquires into why the man hasn't been to church and the man shares his views. Quietly as they are both sipping their tea, the pastor places his cup down, and removes the poker from the fireplace. He removes a single coal from the fire off to the side and sits back down. As they quietly sip their tea, they watch as the coal's light fades until they cannot see any light but ash. The pastor then moves the coal back into the pile of coals and they watch as the coal starts to burn again, and glow like the other coals as the flames warm the room. The pastor finishes his tea, thanks the man, and leaves. The man shows up to church the very next Sunday.
I love this story, and I have to admit I am readily more interested in allegory. A couple things we can glean, like the pastor, we have to be ready and willing to reach out to those we do not see in church, to care enough to give them a call or take them for coffee so that they feel like they do indeed belong, are missed, and are loved. People will do what they want, but we must not leave a man behind. Love in action speaks louder than any words. I believe it was St. Francis of Assissi that said "Preach the Gospel continually. If necessary, use words." We are to be the salt and light to this world. We need to encourage one another and love each other, and by saving someone else, we find that we end up saving ourselves as we draw near to Jesus, the ultimate saviour.
God Bless You All Real Good! Moose
Friday, October 09, 2009
A Few new things...
Hey all, well its been a while since I been on this thing... wow February... that's quite a while... been a lot has happened between now and then... first things first though, please watch and if you think a good blog add this guy to your blog roll: http://crossmanministries.blogspot.com This man is like a brother to me and is involved in a really cool ministry that God has called his family to. Pray for him and for the funding and the people to come into place for this simply HUGE vision God has given him.
In other news... lol... Living in North Battleford has been awesome... waking up to a wonderful wife every day is incredible, and God has been blessing me here in every way. God is indeed good. Still going to the R.O.C. or the Reclaim Outreach Center in North Battleford, getting to play guitar once in a while :) It is a street level ministry with a soup kitchen, used clothing, and men's temporary housing. My friends Don Toovey who used to tour with Double Portion and Pastor Len Beaucage are good solid men who love street people and are incredible ministers of the gospel.
I am still working at Bannerman Photo, (I actually built this website for them :) but have resigned from the hospital. The tech job at Bannerman's went full time and I needed my weekends to spend with my sweetheart, so though a drop in income, it is so nice to have a life now :) I can even get out to church more too...
Darcy's oldest has graduated and is getting his welding ticket, we now have the second oldest living with us and the youngest is still living with his father. Days can be stressful sometimes... the whole kid thing / teenager thing can be as anyone will tell you... hormones lol...
We got away to Tobin Lake to Wilderness Ministries this year, both Dillan, the youngest and Taylor, the second oldest came with us. It was awesome to see how much they really enjoyed being out there. They didn't want to leave which was pretty amazing considering no PS2, Internet, or Cable TV... LOL... They even bore through the Country style Gospel music lol... in spite of it being a little on the cool side with rain :)
I ended up going back up for the September long weekend as Harry and Joanne Cash Yates were up and ministering. I even got to play around the campfire with some Double Portion crew... was an awesome weekend... again cool and rainy but still bearable in a tent with a tarp :) My brother Kel and his family were able to make it up as well and made for an awesome visit.
Another development is that even though I still do not have the funding to get my old shovelhead harley on the road, God saw fit to bless me with a 1980 Yamaha 650 Special... even made it affordable $500! Usually the motor sells at salvage for a buck a cc... so just the engine is worth $650! You can do the math there and see what God did... He is an awesome God... is good to be up riding again... though not my old Harley... God is giving me the little things to be faithful with before He gives me the big things. God is good.Anyways... got up to get a drink of water... ended up writing this lol... heading to Carrot River for Thanksgiving with my family, going to jam with my brother Kel and get to see my cousins new little baby girl... and of course two of the joys of my life, my little nephews
Caleb and Jo... going to be awesome.Well God Bless you all, stay safe and warm :) Snow is here...
Steve "Moose" Funkner
Monday, February 16, 2009
What an awesome weekend...
Had a super weekend! Traveled to Saskatoon to spend some time with my brother Chuck and his family for a movie nite and burgers... Best American ice tea you ever tasted! Spent the nite there and then next morning got to spend time with my Saskatoon church family at Hope Fellowship. Was so good to get together with a lot of brothers and sisters I haven't seen for a while. Went to Joe and Sarah's for lunch and then a pleasant surprise, went to see the Monster Truck show at SaskPlace. Was an awesome afternoon of hanging out with two of my spiritual brothers in arms Joe and Darcy. I posted a few pics and Vids on my facebook... It has dawned on my how much I miss having guys to hang out with and share my heart with. I have not really found that in North Battleford. Of course I can share my heart with my wife, Darcy, but not the same as the brotherly camaraderie one feels with Christian brothers. Then again there was never much a church like Hope Fellowship either... The church I am at is the Reclaim Outreach Center, and that is what it is, an outreach, the tight brotherly camaraderie is just not there yet... it is a newer church only 2 years old, and it has gotten me playing guitar again, helping lead worship... just miss the brotherly love of Hope Fellowship... God is blessing me where I am, I know it... but just lacking in that dept. My friends that read this, you can feel free to pray for me in that area :) In other news... still working at Sask Hospital casually... at Bannerman Photo more so becoming a full time job... the other job opportunity I was looking at wasn't as good as I thought, so I am happy where God has me right now. I enjoy my job at Bannermans... doing more and more Photoshop work... I love that... designing collages for people, doing photo touch ups, I love designing stuff like that... Fixing the 10 or so computers around the place lol... sometimes can be frustrating... but I do like the work. Seems God has me in a holding pattern for now that sometimes I want to buck out from... but all around as a friend of mine once said "Its all good" Lord Bless Ya'll -Moose
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Haven't watered this thing in a while :)
Been a while since I logged in here... Been a busy summer... working two jobs, one at Saskatchewan Hospital as a Care Aide and at a Photo Lab in North Battleford. Being at the bottom of the totem pole works not too bad in the summer when all the the people with Seniority are on holidays... Got to spend about a week up at Wilderness Ministries this year, muchly needed, but all too short. Was a good time for R&R and time to reacquaint with friends and family. Was awesome this summer to see Rick and Bebe a few times, Double Portion and Ron and Donalda. Been also busy helping Don lead worship at my church at the Reclaim Outreach Center or the ROC as we call it... been kinda getting back in the saddle with that again... Generally life is good, marriage is good, still in Newlywed stage with my honey I married last August, a few bumps with the kids here and there, but all in all pretty good. A new life and a new sense of direction. Saw all 3 of my cousins from Carrot River married this year... was awesome sharing that with them and really helped get us closer together for sure... Got some new Cousins in Law :) Awesome people all... Looking at another job opportunity in the wings... see what that holds... am surrounded by a lot of positive people, life can only get better :) A different view from where I was just a couple short years ago... still not a millionaire ;) LOL... but life is generally good... enjoying life in North Battleford and the quietness of it all... Biggest things are missing my family up in Carrot River, my old church family in Saskatoon... but all in all, not really big things in the light of eternity :) God is Good. Well... thats all I can think of right now... Blessings... Moose
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Bill's Baloney: Professional Association of Idiots
Bill's Baloney: Professional Association of Idiots
Man Do I EVER Agree with this guy! Just watching some of the Calgary Stampede Bullriding "Competion" and thinking how Idiotic these guys are. How 'bout making a sport where we spin a barrel on a gun and point it at our heads and see if it goes off when we pull the trigger... oh yeah... already invented that... its called Russian Roulette... Sheesh. And they say motorcycle riding is dangerous... uh... yeah RIGHT.
Man Do I EVER Agree with this guy! Just watching some of the Calgary Stampede Bullriding "Competion" and thinking how Idiotic these guys are. How 'bout making a sport where we spin a barrel on a gun and point it at our heads and see if it goes off when we pull the trigger... oh yeah... already invented that... its called Russian Roulette... Sheesh. And they say motorcycle riding is dangerous... uh... yeah RIGHT.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Wow... Turning 40...
Well today is my birthday. 40 years old... WOW never thought I would be 40, weird thing, 10 more years is 50, scary how the years go past a guy. I had seen it coming for a while, white hair growing in, but now, 40... Reminds me of the song by Randy Stonehill, called, Turning 30, just adding another 10 years lol! I remember when 25 was a big deal, then 30, 40 seems so far off... and 50 well, only OLD people were 50. Got kids calling me "SIR" at gas stations, sheesh! I don't feel like a "Sir" I still feel like an 18 year old at heart, though my body would disagree some mornings... some days almost feel 80 lol... noticing other friends of mine, turning grey, kids graduating, going to college, etc. and realizing we are all getting older. Realizing that now, more than ever, only the things that really matter are worth anything on this earth. Friends, Family, God... how we fight over such minor things that in the light of a lifetime are really trivial. Learning that picking our battles is so important. Thinking that more or less, on average, half of my life is over. What I want to do with the last half of my life and how much of the first half I had squandered in nonsense, or as King Solomon said "Meaningless" stuff, and a lot of life's stuff is meaningless. A lot of life needs to be lived a lot more purposefully for sure. LOL! Rambling on lol... it seems here. Life is too short someone said, and I do believe it now. We are just a blip on the radar of eternity, and what we do here somehow makes a Huge difference on what happens in life, here and ever after. As I get older I realize that spirituality and faith is much more of value than things that pass away. The afterlife now tends to hold more sway in the panorama of my vision than it used to when I was younger, and there is more of a need to get to the point of issues, issues that matter than when I was young and foolish. Time seems to have gotten up from a crawl and started running away from me, more and more, and when captured for a while, time is more and more valuable. Mabey these are all things everyone goes through when they get older and become more reflective on their lives, I don't know. Never been here before :) But life definitely does get more interesting the older you get. Ask me again when I get another 40 years under my belt LOL!
God Bless Ya'll Real Good! Steve "Moose" Funkner
God Bless Ya'll Real Good! Steve "Moose" Funkner
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Very intewesting gwasshauppa...
LOL wow apparently someone thinks my ramblings are actually worth money :) Imagine that! Got this funky email in my Gmail (hey that rhymes)... whether legit or not, still to see, but an interesting forum nonetheless... check it out... http://doingfine.org (If this advertising offer is real, doingfine.org just got some free PR at the very least ;)
Got an interesting chuckle out of this anywhoo :)
God Bless,
Moose
Advertising Inquiry - mooseplace.blogspot.com
Client profile :
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New project (<1 month old)
Theme A forum dedicated to those things that came out right
and worked out fine.
We'd like either a 150x150 button, 160x600 skyscraper or 468x60 full
banner (or footer). Alternatively, we may be interested in text-only
advertising.
This would be a weekly, monthly or yearly arrangement. In either case
we will require a one time, one day (24 hours) free placement in order
to test the quality and quantity of traffic your website can actually
provide*. Within this interval, we will make a final determination,
based on the traffic volume, quality, and your asking price. Should
we find your terms acceptable, this trial day will count towards the
agreed interval.
Kindly let us know if you would be interested, which arrangement best
suits your editorial needs, and what rates you would like to charge.
We prefer using PayPal but may be able to accommodate alternative
payment methods.
Thank you.
*Please note that we employ software that reliably detects autoclick
and autosurf bots, pay per click and paid to surf type traffic, and
other such non-human traffic. This may be a concern for you,
especially if you are buying "bulk traffic", or employing the
services of dubious "SEO experts".
Got an interesting chuckle out of this anywhoo :)
God Bless,
Moose
Advertising Inquiry - mooseplace.blogspot.com
Client profile :
DoingFine (http://doingfine.org)
New project (<1 month old)
Theme A forum dedicated to those things that came out right
and worked out fine.
We'd like either a 150x150 button, 160x600 skyscraper or 468x60 full
banner (or footer). Alternatively, we may be interested in text-only
advertising.
This would be a weekly, monthly or yearly arrangement. In either case
we will require a one time, one day (24 hours) free placement in order
to test the quality and quantity of traffic your website can actually
provide*. Within this interval, we will make a final determination,
based on the traffic volume, quality, and your asking price. Should
we find your terms acceptable, this trial day will count towards the
agreed interval.
Kindly let us know if you would be interested, which arrangement best
suits your editorial needs, and what rates you would like to charge.
We prefer using PayPal but may be able to accommodate alternative
payment methods.
Thank you.
*Please note that we employ software that reliably detects autoclick
and autosurf bots, pay per click and paid to surf type traffic, and
other such non-human traffic. This may be a concern for you,
especially if you are buying "bulk traffic", or employing the
services of dubious "SEO experts".
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Larry Norman Dead at 60... Wow...
The World is just a little darker place today...
http://canadianpress.google.com/article/ALeqM5gj4mgUcw46lfZXbioOJCJMBA8Nag
Christian rock pioneer Larry Norman dead at 60
1 day ago
SALEM, Ore. - Larry Norman, a pioneer of Christian rock, has died at age 60.
Norman died of heart failure Sunday at his home in Salem, said his brother, Charles Norman. Norman earned his biggest commercial hit as the lead singer of the folk-rock band People! The band's cover version of The Zombies song "I Love You" was an international hit and peaked at No. 7 on the Billboard chart in June 1968.
Norman left the band on the day its debut album was released, when some members began experimenting with Scientology.
Though Norman never again hit the Billboard Top 10, his solo career proved durable and influential.
Norman's first solo record - the 1969 release "Upon This Rock" - is considered the first Christian rock album. He later started his own independent label, recording additional solo albums while discovering other Christian artists. It all led to him being dubbed the "father of Christian rock."
Larry Norman was born April 8, 1947, in Corpus Christi, Texas. His family moved to San Francisco when Norman was young and he developed an interest in the music of Elvis Presley.
He accompanied his father on Christian missions to prisons and hospitals and was inspired to write rock songs that included spiritual messages, Charles Norman said.
Charles Norman said his brother practised what he preached, even stopping taxi rides while on tour to help homeless people.
Norman was inducted into the Gospel Music Hall of Fame in 2001 and cover versions of his songs have been recorded by artists ranging from Petula Clark and Sammy Davis Jr. to DC Talk and Rebecca St. James.
At the time of his death, Norman was working on an album with Modest Mouse singer Isaac Brock and former Pixies singer Frank Black, who cites Norman as a major influence.
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Christian rock pioneer Larry Norman dead at 60
1 day ago
SALEM, Ore. - Larry Norman, a pioneer of Christian rock, has died at age 60.
Norman died of heart failure Sunday at his home in Salem, said his brother, Charles Norman. Norman earned his biggest commercial hit as the lead singer of the folk-rock band People! The band's cover version of The Zombies song "I Love You" was an international hit and peaked at No. 7 on the Billboard chart in June 1968.
Norman left the band on the day its debut album was released, when some members began experimenting with Scientology.
Though Norman never again hit the Billboard Top 10, his solo career proved durable and influential.
Norman's first solo record - the 1969 release "Upon This Rock" - is considered the first Christian rock album. He later started his own independent label, recording additional solo albums while discovering other Christian artists. It all led to him being dubbed the "father of Christian rock."
Larry Norman was born April 8, 1947, in Corpus Christi, Texas. His family moved to San Francisco when Norman was young and he developed an interest in the music of Elvis Presley.
He accompanied his father on Christian missions to prisons and hospitals and was inspired to write rock songs that included spiritual messages, Charles Norman said.
Charles Norman said his brother practised what he preached, even stopping taxi rides while on tour to help homeless people.
Norman was inducted into the Gospel Music Hall of Fame in 2001 and cover versions of his songs have been recorded by artists ranging from Petula Clark and Sammy Davis Jr. to DC Talk and Rebecca St. James.
At the time of his death, Norman was working on an album with Modest Mouse singer Isaac Brock and former Pixies singer Frank Black, who cites Norman as a major influence.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Struggles... in Life...
Well... have been job shadowing at Sask Hospital now for a few days... have now got a couple Continuing Care Aide courses under my belt (there are 16) and the job prospect is looking good for a job at Sask Hospital in North Battleford when I get done.
Financially seems we are still struggling since the move, marriage etc. but am hoping things will get cleared up when I start working again hopefully.
Biggest thing I am struggling with is the existing family baggage that came with the beautiful woman I am madly in love with.
In some sense I do love her boys, some more than others, but I find I have personality conficts with one of them and I do not know how to deal with it. I recognize the conflicts as just that, personality conflicts, but there are power struggle issues as well that frustrate and anger me. Somedays I just do not know what to do. The kid is just like his father, Type A, world revolves around me, irresponsible, and an opinion on everything even if they know nothing about the subject. Drives me crazy.
I have to deal with these people and yet, Jesus says I am supposed to love them. This is very difficult for me. I try, Lord I try... but it seems I more swing around to the end of anger and frustration than love and forgiveness. Praying for them is like praying for a wall to become sand... and every time I am around or have to deal with one of these two individuals I feel like I have to bite my tongue. It does not bring peace to me, nor my beautiful wife, or the other people in my family, but on the other hand, if I bottle it up thats not good either. Being a stepdad I feel like I have no opinion in the matters of the existing family and if I do say something it just seems to offend people because even though what I say is the truth, people do not want to hear it or do not want me to rock the boat.
I know coming into a family as an outsider is a difficult thing, I saw my stepdad Dennis deal with us when he married my mom, but I do not remember the power struggles and blatent lack of respect and irresponsibility that seems to crop up with these people I deal with. It truly is frustrating and I try to love and care through it, but find it truly hard to do. I pray for forgiveness in my heart and theirs, I pray for change, but it seems it does not come. In my heart I want peace, and I know that the unrest in our family causes my wife a great deal of unrest and sadness. I just do not know what to do anymore. God knows I try.
Oh well... this is just me ranting and raving... sorry, no wonderfully spiritual truths or postulating... just me typing and blurting out what is on my mind. Gotta be real. Moose.
Financially seems we are still struggling since the move, marriage etc. but am hoping things will get cleared up when I start working again hopefully.
Biggest thing I am struggling with is the existing family baggage that came with the beautiful woman I am madly in love with.
In some sense I do love her boys, some more than others, but I find I have personality conficts with one of them and I do not know how to deal with it. I recognize the conflicts as just that, personality conflicts, but there are power struggle issues as well that frustrate and anger me. Somedays I just do not know what to do. The kid is just like his father, Type A, world revolves around me, irresponsible, and an opinion on everything even if they know nothing about the subject. Drives me crazy.
I have to deal with these people and yet, Jesus says I am supposed to love them. This is very difficult for me. I try, Lord I try... but it seems I more swing around to the end of anger and frustration than love and forgiveness. Praying for them is like praying for a wall to become sand... and every time I am around or have to deal with one of these two individuals I feel like I have to bite my tongue. It does not bring peace to me, nor my beautiful wife, or the other people in my family, but on the other hand, if I bottle it up thats not good either. Being a stepdad I feel like I have no opinion in the matters of the existing family and if I do say something it just seems to offend people because even though what I say is the truth, people do not want to hear it or do not want me to rock the boat.
I know coming into a family as an outsider is a difficult thing, I saw my stepdad Dennis deal with us when he married my mom, but I do not remember the power struggles and blatent lack of respect and irresponsibility that seems to crop up with these people I deal with. It truly is frustrating and I try to love and care through it, but find it truly hard to do. I pray for forgiveness in my heart and theirs, I pray for change, but it seems it does not come. In my heart I want peace, and I know that the unrest in our family causes my wife a great deal of unrest and sadness. I just do not know what to do anymore. God knows I try.
Oh well... this is just me ranting and raving... sorry, no wonderfully spiritual truths or postulating... just me typing and blurting out what is on my mind. Gotta be real. Moose.
Monday, October 22, 2007
LifeUpdate...
Well... been a while since I been on here... with the advent of Facebook, marriage, and a move, been quite busy lately. Been enjoying being busy at taking some time off work and collecting some well earned Employment Insurance. Been over 17 years since I remember doing that. It is good. Rest and Relaxation, going to the gym again, getting stuff sorted out from the move, and really getting to spend a lot of quality time with my new family. Marriage is wonderful. I never thought I would ever say that 2 years ago or so, but life has really turned a corner for me. I am in love like I have thought possible, and the whole dad thing is working out. Taking some time to do some of the things I have wanted to pursue, reading, getting in shape, and following my favorite teams the Saskatchewan Roughriders and the Calgary Flames. Funny thing, I used to almost literally LIVE on the computer, but nice to live in the analogue world and check out what it has to offer. North Battleford is a wonderful place to live, and being in a valley, it is truly beautiful as well. There is lots of history here, and lots to see and take in. The job hunt is half hearted right now, enjoying my holiday in life and soaking it all in. Seems as I get older I seem to appreciate the finer things in life and am more aware of the brevity of it and the need to really make each day count. Our next breath is not guaranteed to us and we must really live life to the fullest or lose the wonderful-ness of it all. I have done things I have wanted to do, things small and some great. Small things like actually watching Casablanca finally after all these years, movies that people say you should watch but never had time to do before.
More time for devotions, Bible Study, ministry... things that actually count for something in the long run. I am pressed with the knowledge that our time on this earth is short and we do not have a lot of it when you think of how fast it goes by, those who have left this earth ahead of us and those who have been wise enough to share that experience. Millions have gone before us and the thought that really presses me is what legacy am I to leave behind? What mark on this earth will I leave, where does it really matter? I am more and more convinced that once all our our deeds are put to the flame of God, only what has been done for Him will be eternal. We scurry about like ants in a hill, focused on moving so much miniscule pieces of dirt from here to there, only to find that there is a larger call, something much bigger we are to do, for when we are gone, all that we have left is dirt and ash, but what we have done for God is real and immortal. Cynical, mabey, but I believe that is the real, reality of life. After we have earned our dollars, paid our bills, lived in the bubble we call our lives, what have we accomplished? Have we healed the sick? Bound up the broken hearted? Set at liberty them who are bruised? Have we REALLY made a difference in someones life of have we hurriedly rushed by in the midst of our small lives filled with indifference or worse, apathy?
(Isa 61:1 NIV) "The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners,"
(Isa 61:2 NIV) "to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn,"
(Isa 61:3 NIV) "and provide for those who grieve in Zion-- to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor."
(Isa 61:4 NIV) "They will rebuild the ancient ruins and restore the places long devastated; they will renew the ruined cities that have been devastated for generations."
Do we weep over our cities and towns like Jesus wept over Jerusalem? Or do we brush people off as someone else's responsibility, mabey missionaries, or pastors? DO we REALLY believe we are the hands and feet of Christ or just his judgemental voice when we see something is wrong inpinging upon our rights? Do we REALLY love the world and its people or are they just too bothersome to deal with as we go about our self centered lives? These are things I have been noticing in my life and in the lives of other Christians. Why does the world not take the Christian church seriously? I believe this is why. We are truly too focused on our rights, money and our selves to seriously care about anyone else. Further, people are struggling on how little they love themselves to reach out and love others. They can barely make it day to day looking after themselves let alone others. We are truly living in Laodecia. The fires that once burned bright we have let them grow dim. The very one we swore that we would die for has been forgotten.
(Rev 3:14 NIV) ""To the angel of the church in Laodicea write: These are the words of the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the ruler of God's creation."
(Rev 3:15 NIV) "I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other!"
(Rev 3:16 NIV) "So, because you are lukewarm--neither hot nor cold--I am about to spit you out of my mouth."
(Rev 3:17 NIV) "You say, 'I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.' But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked."
(Rev 3:18 NIV) "I counsel you to buy from me gold refined in the fire, so you can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so you can cover your shameful nakedness; and salve to put on your eyes, so you can see."
(Rev 3:19 NIV) "Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest, and repent."
(Rev 3:20 NIV) "Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me."
My heart has been broken lately for those I have walked by who Jesus wanted me to love. There is really only one remedy He provides, repentance. More and more I am amazed at the call we leave at the altar for unbelievers to open the door to Jesus' knocking, only in amazement to find that it is us, the Christians Jesus is calling to. May we really be refined in the fire that we could be Gold in faith and deeds, in love and mercy, to rebuild the ruins of our cities physically and spiritually, to be the anchors and hearts and hands of our Lord. These are things I am walking through right now and I believe is on the heart of God. Prayerfully seek God in your life as I seek Him in mine to see where we can best serve Him and not our own desires. Just stuff on my heart. Blessings... Moose
More time for devotions, Bible Study, ministry... things that actually count for something in the long run. I am pressed with the knowledge that our time on this earth is short and we do not have a lot of it when you think of how fast it goes by, those who have left this earth ahead of us and those who have been wise enough to share that experience. Millions have gone before us and the thought that really presses me is what legacy am I to leave behind? What mark on this earth will I leave, where does it really matter? I am more and more convinced that once all our our deeds are put to the flame of God, only what has been done for Him will be eternal. We scurry about like ants in a hill, focused on moving so much miniscule pieces of dirt from here to there, only to find that there is a larger call, something much bigger we are to do, for when we are gone, all that we have left is dirt and ash, but what we have done for God is real and immortal. Cynical, mabey, but I believe that is the real, reality of life. After we have earned our dollars, paid our bills, lived in the bubble we call our lives, what have we accomplished? Have we healed the sick? Bound up the broken hearted? Set at liberty them who are bruised? Have we REALLY made a difference in someones life of have we hurriedly rushed by in the midst of our small lives filled with indifference or worse, apathy?
(Isa 61:1 NIV) "The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners,"
(Isa 61:2 NIV) "to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn,"
(Isa 61:3 NIV) "and provide for those who grieve in Zion-- to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor."
(Isa 61:4 NIV) "They will rebuild the ancient ruins and restore the places long devastated; they will renew the ruined cities that have been devastated for generations."
Do we weep over our cities and towns like Jesus wept over Jerusalem? Or do we brush people off as someone else's responsibility, mabey missionaries, or pastors? DO we REALLY believe we are the hands and feet of Christ or just his judgemental voice when we see something is wrong inpinging upon our rights? Do we REALLY love the world and its people or are they just too bothersome to deal with as we go about our self centered lives? These are things I have been noticing in my life and in the lives of other Christians. Why does the world not take the Christian church seriously? I believe this is why. We are truly too focused on our rights, money and our selves to seriously care about anyone else. Further, people are struggling on how little they love themselves to reach out and love others. They can barely make it day to day looking after themselves let alone others. We are truly living in Laodecia. The fires that once burned bright we have let them grow dim. The very one we swore that we would die for has been forgotten.
(Rev 3:14 NIV) ""To the angel of the church in Laodicea write: These are the words of the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the ruler of God's creation."
(Rev 3:15 NIV) "I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other!"
(Rev 3:16 NIV) "So, because you are lukewarm--neither hot nor cold--I am about to spit you out of my mouth."
(Rev 3:17 NIV) "You say, 'I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.' But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked."
(Rev 3:18 NIV) "I counsel you to buy from me gold refined in the fire, so you can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so you can cover your shameful nakedness; and salve to put on your eyes, so you can see."
(Rev 3:19 NIV) "Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest, and repent."
(Rev 3:20 NIV) "Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me."
My heart has been broken lately for those I have walked by who Jesus wanted me to love. There is really only one remedy He provides, repentance. More and more I am amazed at the call we leave at the altar for unbelievers to open the door to Jesus' knocking, only in amazement to find that it is us, the Christians Jesus is calling to. May we really be refined in the fire that we could be Gold in faith and deeds, in love and mercy, to rebuild the ruins of our cities physically and spiritually, to be the anchors and hearts and hands of our Lord. These are things I am walking through right now and I believe is on the heart of God. Prayerfully seek God in your life as I seek Him in mine to see where we can best serve Him and not our own desires. Just stuff on my heart. Blessings... Moose
Monday, August 06, 2007
Wow what a WILD RIDE last couple Days!
Hey fellow bloggers traveling the data stream of life...
What a wild few days... Well every one seems to be asking me how the wedding went... Got one good solid answer. I AM MARRIED LOL! MUSTA WORKED! We are officially wedded and Darcy and I are on our honeymoon at the West Edmonton Mall... IT is INCREDIbLE to say the least. Just came from a sealion show that was one of the wildest things i have ever seen, we had an awesome nite soaking in the hot tub in the Roman Room in our suite complete with wine and cheeze and fresh fruit. After a good nite sleep on what I can only describe as the comfy-est bed I have ever slept on, off this morning to complimentary brekkie at the Europa Cafe, bought some swim trunks for the water park, and took pics there and back, the sea lion show... and then swimming later, going to a comedy club to watch some comedians on bourbon street and hit the hot tub again with a bottle of bubbly for tonite... wow what a wonderful day. it is amazing. Gonna meet with a buddy here mabey and stop at a friends in Lloydminster tommorrow am as well as trip back home. GOnna miss living at the mall... it is so incredible here... too many things to just do in a day or so... oh yea found a chinese place with INCREDIBLE bubble tea... had watermelon and it BLEW my mind. It is so incredible doing all this with the lady I now call my wife and sharing such wonderful experiences with her. We DEFINITELY plan to come back! Photos and more to ocme at a later date! God Bless You Good! Moose
What a wild few days... Well every one seems to be asking me how the wedding went... Got one good solid answer. I AM MARRIED LOL! MUSTA WORKED! We are officially wedded and Darcy and I are on our honeymoon at the West Edmonton Mall... IT is INCREDIbLE to say the least. Just came from a sealion show that was one of the wildest things i have ever seen, we had an awesome nite soaking in the hot tub in the Roman Room in our suite complete with wine and cheeze and fresh fruit. After a good nite sleep on what I can only describe as the comfy-est bed I have ever slept on, off this morning to complimentary brekkie at the Europa Cafe, bought some swim trunks for the water park, and took pics there and back, the sea lion show... and then swimming later, going to a comedy club to watch some comedians on bourbon street and hit the hot tub again with a bottle of bubbly for tonite... wow what a wonderful day. it is amazing. Gonna meet with a buddy here mabey and stop at a friends in Lloydminster tommorrow am as well as trip back home. GOnna miss living at the mall... it is so incredible here... too many things to just do in a day or so... oh yea found a chinese place with INCREDIBLE bubble tea... had watermelon and it BLEW my mind. It is so incredible doing all this with the lady I now call my wife and sharing such wonderful experiences with her. We DEFINITELY plan to come back! Photos and more to ocme at a later date! God Bless You Good! Moose
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Wow I am getting married in a month...
One month to go... and my life becomes altered once again, a paradigm shift from single and living on my own to married with children and not the sitcom... another big move (physically and metaphorically) and a whole new life in a small Saskatchewan city. North Battleford to be exact. The whole North Battleford / Battleford area is beautiful, the pace is slow, and a lot of people do not obey yield or stop signs lol... you don't expect to get anywhere fast out there as everyone seems to be moving at a much slower pace... LOTS of farm plates lol... nice to see there are a few amenities that Saskatoon has, a Canadian Tire (very important if you are a guy), Mark's Work Wearhouse (very important if you are a big guy and thats all you wear), and of course a Walmart. McDonalds and A&W are there too, but I prefer the Subway... even a Vern's Pizza. In Saskatoon the Co-op is a smaller business... in North Battleford they have their own MALL lol... and of course there is a Sobeys... We discovered that one of the hotels on the outskirts of North Battleford has a Smitties and a larger discovery is a dessert with the name ROLO in it... mmmmmm... town is full of history, the Northwest Mounted Police had a barracks there and a fort, and the whole place seems to live up to its slogan "Where the past is present" although LOL my first thought was oh no going to be living in a backwards hick town lol... at 14000 people seems everyone knows everyone there... http://www.cityofnb.ca/ theres the website if you are curious lol...
Oh yeah... back on track here... I love bunny trails lol ya never quite know where they gonna end up... yeah so new life... married with children... hmmm... yadda... yadda... oh yeah, new church... Living Faith Chapel or the "LFC' as it is named my new church... we are still trying to figure out how two entire households are going to meld into one, lots of stuff... and I already pared it down... that is going to be quite a challenge... it really has hit though that in one month this whole new life kicks into gear... seems like not a lot of time and so very much to do... on the other side of this I am sure it will look pretty amazing as well... got a lady who is so amazing beside me through this all, soon to be my wife... It is going to be so awesome. I cannot wait to take a month off either... at the prompting of my sweetheart, I decided that is what I am going to do... spend some time with the boys... do some r&r... do a lot of work getting settled in...
Darcy is getting her dress made... fittings galore... we are making our own cake... she is making all the decorations... what a lady... I just have to pay for the actual wedding... the catering and the location and the photos... some new clothes to get hitched in lol... I am sure looking forward to the honeymoon, some time away just me and her... plan is still for West Ed mall Roman room... I cannot wait to crawl into the Jacuzzi lol... one of the few places where you can go ice skating AND swimming in the same afternoon under the same roof LOL... it should be awesome...
Its all sinking in and looking like it is going to be a wild ride...
Oh yeah... back on track here... I love bunny trails lol ya never quite know where they gonna end up... yeah so new life... married with children... hmmm... yadda... yadda... oh yeah, new church... Living Faith Chapel or the "LFC' as it is named my new church... we are still trying to figure out how two entire households are going to meld into one, lots of stuff... and I already pared it down... that is going to be quite a challenge... it really has hit though that in one month this whole new life kicks into gear... seems like not a lot of time and so very much to do... on the other side of this I am sure it will look pretty amazing as well... got a lady who is so amazing beside me through this all, soon to be my wife... It is going to be so awesome. I cannot wait to take a month off either... at the prompting of my sweetheart, I decided that is what I am going to do... spend some time with the boys... do some r&r... do a lot of work getting settled in...
Darcy is getting her dress made... fittings galore... we are making our own cake... she is making all the decorations... what a lady... I just have to pay for the actual wedding... the catering and the location and the photos... some new clothes to get hitched in lol... I am sure looking forward to the honeymoon, some time away just me and her... plan is still for West Ed mall Roman room... I cannot wait to crawl into the Jacuzzi lol... one of the few places where you can go ice skating AND swimming in the same afternoon under the same roof LOL... it should be awesome...
Its all sinking in and looking like it is going to be a wild ride...
Monday, June 04, 2007
Shameless URL plugs...
Been spending a LOT of time on a couple of website lately (still dunno if that is good or bad) and just wanted to share these with my blogging world :) One is www.facebook.com a very interesting site whereby I am rediscovering all sorts of people I havent talked to in ages. Very cool. The other is www.pogo.com purely a game site, got the full membership as a gift from my sweetheart and good way to relax after a day at work...
Of course one site on lots too right now is www.nhl.com for obvious reasons :) I am a Calgary Flames fan but cannot help going with a Canadian team for the Stanley Cup (guess its the patriot in me) GO SENS GO!
My two cents ;)
Of course one site on lots too right now is www.nhl.com for obvious reasons :) I am a Calgary Flames fan but cannot help going with a Canadian team for the Stanley Cup (guess its the patriot in me) GO SENS GO!
My two cents ;)
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Check this blog out...
For those who don't know this is my fiance's blog http://afriend4everw3.blogspot.com her name is Darcy. God Bless - Moose
Love, Actually...
Well... just a couple more months until the wedding... seems it is drawing so close and days when it cannot get here fast enough lol... every day is a gift from God and the more days I live it seems these days, the more convinced I am. There is absolutely nothing in this world that isnt laid up by God's own hand, good or bad all things work to the good for those who love God. I am truly amazed at His blessings that are truly new every morning, how redemptive of a God He is and how much He truly loves us. I am blown away by agapao love, unconditional, pure and sweet from God the very source and who is comprised actually of love. In the Gospel of John we find that God calls Himself Love itself.
(1 John 4:8-10 NIV) "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love."
9 "This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him."
10 "This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins."
What a God! The very essence of love, the very ingredient in our lives in its purest form. And that He not us, made the first step in loving us, the God of the universe. Think about that for a moment. WOW. He sent His son to die for us, His son. How many fathers would send their children to die for someone else? Not for Himself but for us. Amazing Love. This is never so evident when we read in 1 Corinthians 13 called the love chapter the following:
(1 Cor 13:1-8 NIV) "If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal."
2 "If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing."
3 "If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing."
4 "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud."
5 "It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs."
6 "Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth."
7 "It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
8 "Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away."
If God is Love, and we substitute God for Love in this chapter we find a very wonderful picture of God's love for His children.
(1 Cor 13:4-8 NIV) "GOD is patient, GOD is kind. GOD does not envy, GOD does not boast, GOD is not proud."
5 "GOD is not rude, GOD is not self-seeking, GOD is not easily angered, GOD keeps no record of wrongs."
6 "GOD does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth."
7 "GOD always protects, GOD always trusts, GOD always hopes, GOD always perseveres."
8 "GOD never fails."
Did you catch that? Did you see that? God never, ever, will ever fail. Ever. He is more solid than the bedrock beneath your feet. More true than the North Star. That will all pass away but He still will REMAIN. What a God. And this is the unwavering love He has for us. The love He expects us to have for the world. Unconditional love.
I have been so amazed at how, when we fail, God never does. When we have given up, God is still on our side. When we sin, God has already provided a way of atonement. He already did the work, we just have to accept what He is and own it in our hearts. Amazing.
How does that fit in my life you might ask... lol... looking at what I have written above I had to ask my self that same question lol... well... not really...
I am the most in love with anyone I have ever been in my life. I am experiencing agapao love like I never have before. A pure unconditional love that only seeks to love me back. I am convinced that my finance is a gift from God as there is no way the two of us could be so made for each other by accident. The past experiences bad or good have moulded us each to be exactly who the other would ever want or need and I am truly amazed. I cannot live without this woman it seems, we live in two different towns until the wedding and I long to be close to her whenever I am away. I have never written so many love letters or sung as many love songs to anyone in my life. I have never dropped all my walls of protection around my heart like I have with her. It is like I expected her to fight her way into my heart and she walked right in to the center of it without firing a shot. Never have I ever had my heart so conquered so amazingly and it was with unconditional love, pure, kind, gentle and simple. I believe that is why there are so many allusions to God's love being to that of a groom for His bride. A love like that cannot be stood up against. You can try, but when someone is pouring out pure, agapao love on you it is pretty hard to keep hard against that person lol... and in this case I didnt even want to try.
I find it amazing that a heart can be broken so hard and still have the capacity to love again. Each day, my heart heals more from my past, and each day past hurts dissapate more like a bad dream. Each day with my love seems like another day of opportunity to love again and the longing to be man and wife preoccupies my mind.
I know what love sickness means now lol... it is true that absence does make the heart grow fonder. Not being able to see my fiance daily is hard. Harder than I thought it would be. Of course never had a relationship quite like this before. I cannot wait for the next email, phone call, webcam, or trip out to see her or her to see me. I have never had my heart long for someone like I do for her outside God.
I guess that is what it is quite like really and I have a whole another appreciation for what God must be going through. He wants Jesus to come back for His bride the church... I cannot imagine how stir crazy God must be going longing to wed with His church. The love and longing God has for His bride. WOW... if He is experiencing even half of what I am WOW... lol of course I know that His love is so much more for us than man for woman, but WOW... that is some kind of love. The fact that He is waiting is even so much more amazing. I have a lot more empathy for God's heart for us now that I am actually experiencing kinda the same thing, though obviously not on the same scale...
And God wants the same with us that we want with our bride, communion, to be together, to talk, to love. How He must long for us when we are too busy for Him. That is why we must know Him, not know about Him, not of heard about Him, KNOW Him... Know what is in His heart, what makes Him laugh, cry, makes him happy or sad. I hear His voice and know who it is on the other end of the line.
If He loves us like I love my bride, His heart must jump whenever He hears from us like mine does when I hear my fiance on the other end of the phone, to hear the words I love you to Him must make His heart soar like mine does when my love says that to me. To have His love poured back to Him like my bride pours back hers to me must be truly amazing on a celestial scale.
Wow... I guess our needs and His needs are not really that different at all... The need to be loved.
God Bless... Moose
(1 John 4:8-10 NIV) "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love."
9 "This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him."
10 "This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins."
What a God! The very essence of love, the very ingredient in our lives in its purest form. And that He not us, made the first step in loving us, the God of the universe. Think about that for a moment. WOW. He sent His son to die for us, His son. How many fathers would send their children to die for someone else? Not for Himself but for us. Amazing Love. This is never so evident when we read in 1 Corinthians 13 called the love chapter the following:
(1 Cor 13:1-8 NIV) "If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal."
2 "If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing."
3 "If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing."
4 "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud."
5 "It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs."
6 "Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth."
7 "It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
8 "Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away."
If God is Love, and we substitute God for Love in this chapter we find a very wonderful picture of God's love for His children.
(1 Cor 13:4-8 NIV) "GOD is patient, GOD is kind. GOD does not envy, GOD does not boast, GOD is not proud."
5 "GOD is not rude, GOD is not self-seeking, GOD is not easily angered, GOD keeps no record of wrongs."
6 "GOD does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth."
7 "GOD always protects, GOD always trusts, GOD always hopes, GOD always perseveres."
8 "GOD never fails."
Did you catch that? Did you see that? God never, ever, will ever fail. Ever. He is more solid than the bedrock beneath your feet. More true than the North Star. That will all pass away but He still will REMAIN. What a God. And this is the unwavering love He has for us. The love He expects us to have for the world. Unconditional love.
I have been so amazed at how, when we fail, God never does. When we have given up, God is still on our side. When we sin, God has already provided a way of atonement. He already did the work, we just have to accept what He is and own it in our hearts. Amazing.
How does that fit in my life you might ask... lol... looking at what I have written above I had to ask my self that same question lol... well... not really...
I am the most in love with anyone I have ever been in my life. I am experiencing agapao love like I never have before. A pure unconditional love that only seeks to love me back. I am convinced that my finance is a gift from God as there is no way the two of us could be so made for each other by accident. The past experiences bad or good have moulded us each to be exactly who the other would ever want or need and I am truly amazed. I cannot live without this woman it seems, we live in two different towns until the wedding and I long to be close to her whenever I am away. I have never written so many love letters or sung as many love songs to anyone in my life. I have never dropped all my walls of protection around my heart like I have with her. It is like I expected her to fight her way into my heart and she walked right in to the center of it without firing a shot. Never have I ever had my heart so conquered so amazingly and it was with unconditional love, pure, kind, gentle and simple. I believe that is why there are so many allusions to God's love being to that of a groom for His bride. A love like that cannot be stood up against. You can try, but when someone is pouring out pure, agapao love on you it is pretty hard to keep hard against that person lol... and in this case I didnt even want to try.
I find it amazing that a heart can be broken so hard and still have the capacity to love again. Each day, my heart heals more from my past, and each day past hurts dissapate more like a bad dream. Each day with my love seems like another day of opportunity to love again and the longing to be man and wife preoccupies my mind.
I know what love sickness means now lol... it is true that absence does make the heart grow fonder. Not being able to see my fiance daily is hard. Harder than I thought it would be. Of course never had a relationship quite like this before. I cannot wait for the next email, phone call, webcam, or trip out to see her or her to see me. I have never had my heart long for someone like I do for her outside God.
I guess that is what it is quite like really and I have a whole another appreciation for what God must be going through. He wants Jesus to come back for His bride the church... I cannot imagine how stir crazy God must be going longing to wed with His church. The love and longing God has for His bride. WOW... if He is experiencing even half of what I am WOW... lol of course I know that His love is so much more for us than man for woman, but WOW... that is some kind of love. The fact that He is waiting is even so much more amazing. I have a lot more empathy for God's heart for us now that I am actually experiencing kinda the same thing, though obviously not on the same scale...
And God wants the same with us that we want with our bride, communion, to be together, to talk, to love. How He must long for us when we are too busy for Him. That is why we must know Him, not know about Him, not of heard about Him, KNOW Him... Know what is in His heart, what makes Him laugh, cry, makes him happy or sad. I hear His voice and know who it is on the other end of the line.
If He loves us like I love my bride, His heart must jump whenever He hears from us like mine does when I hear my fiance on the other end of the phone, to hear the words I love you to Him must make His heart soar like mine does when my love says that to me. To have His love poured back to Him like my bride pours back hers to me must be truly amazing on a celestial scale.
Wow... I guess our needs and His needs are not really that different at all... The need to be loved.
God Bless... Moose
Monday, April 16, 2007
Its My Birfday ;)
Well... had to change my age from 38 to 39... yikes... 1 year away from that old age 40 line... lol... downhill? Uphill? Dunno until I get there won't know... Somedays I can feel it in my body, but then again am outta shape lol... Got friends who are 40 and they don't seem worse for wear, and about this mid life crisis thing... when does that happen? Have I been through it? Lord I hope so lol... I think about my new life in a few short months, it is truly amazing... Got a new place to live, my house is sold... gonna have a new wife, TOTALLY head over heels in love... divorce is finalized... gotta new (new to me) car (1989 Corolla), Camry was totalled this Christmas... gonna have... kids... wow... I am a dad in training imagine that! ... 3 boys... with much fear and trepidation I might add and a bit of humor... The 12 year old stared wonderously at my face and declared... "WOW are you EVER getting a LOT of grey hair" lol... Geez... thanks kid... lol... to which I commented its you guys LOL... KIDDDING!!!! To which we all got a good laugh. My fiance swears that my hair is gonna go grey real quick once I move in lol... I am thinking to myself... SELF... strap yer butt inna chair... gonna be a WILD ride lol... Was awesome hanging out with the boys this weekend watching my team (The Flames) lose and their team (The Canucks) win... I find myself more and more loving those kids... especially when in amazement we are watching American Chopper and I find the little one snuggling up to me to watch TV... wow cannot describe that feeling... I kinda feel... well... like a dad... and the look on my lady's face when that happens is amazing... sure feels cool to be part of family. That and discussions about a possible little one in the future... wow never been there before... God truly is amazing... I feel like Job from the Bible after satan wrecks his life... the blessings pour in. If you never read it before it is quite a read... sure lets ya know where you stand in the spiritual food chain of God's kingdom... Man this really got longer than I intended it to, but thats ok... my heart had more stuff in it than I thought it did. God Bless. Moose
Friday, March 30, 2007
Added Wedding Countdown...
Figured I wanted a good way to track and share when I get married... going to be so awesome... life is incredible these days, going to church lots at Living Faith Chapel in North Battleford, an Apostolic Church with my honey and a couple of her boys. Here is their website here: Living Faith Chapel Although not quite the family atmosphere or freedom to worship as Hope Fellowship, it is a good bible based church with an awesome pastoral team with a great heart for its people and its community. Been spending quite a few weekends out in North Battleford with my new family so thats why I haven't been around much Hopers :) Am hoping to get out to Hope this weekend though and see you guys. Miss you all. Got a new car, well new to me now after my Christmas car wreck... its a 1989 Toyoto Corolla, bare bones no frills car, but runs good and is certified and has been gone through with a fine tooth comb. House Sold so now awaiting possession and so now focus is on wedding August 4th and the move out to North Battleford. Which reminds me, if anyone has a truck i could borrow, or hitch a ride with to North Battleford with a couch and a boxspring, let me know. I got to get those out of my landlords garage asap... Hmm what else is new... Lotsa Juno hype around Saskatoon, big name music industry hits small town Saskatchewan lol... Bike Show is on this weekend, as well as Tattoo show... Still working at Leah Brisdon & Associates, brisk real estate market now, not much out there for sale and whatever is getting snapped up by investors... still working at SAI until mid July, working this weekend... Spring has finally sprung so now getting the bug to get my bike together and riding... Heading home weekend after next for Easter with my family... well better get back to work here... God Bless All... Moose
Monday, January 29, 2007
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