A Song for Where I am At...

A Song for Where I am At...

ARTIST: Kansas
COMPOSER: Kerry Livgren
TITLE: Carry On Wayward Son

Lyrics and Chords
{Refrain}

Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more

/ Em G D C / Em G D - / 1st / x /

Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
I was soaring ever higher
But I flew too high

/ Em D C D / / Am G F FG / Am G D - /

Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man
Though my mind could think I still was a mad man
I hear the voices when I'm dreaming
I can hear them say

{Refrain}

Masquerading as a man with a reason
My charade is the event of the season
And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don't know

On a stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean
I set a course for winds of fortune
But I hear the voices say

{Refrain}

No!
Carry on, you will always remember
Carry on, nothing equals the splendor
Now your life's no longer empty
Surely heaven waits for you

/ Em D C - / / Am G F - / Am G D - /
{Refrain}

I listened to this song tonite and really felt that this is exactly where I am at...

I love my church but sometimes cannot understand it. The people I mean.

People have told me how blessed they are at how God is shining through me at this time in my life.

I cannot see it. I see my self as a failure, a loser, who is constantly failing to live up to my God.

I know that in my weakness is His strength, but why does it seem I am always so weak?

I cannot seem to be the man that God wants me to be...

I cannot understand how God can show through such a mess as me.

I love people. I love deeply. I love passionately. I love God.

But I constantly fail to serve Him. It is like I am walking against the wind.

I cry out to God with a voiceless cry, like the cry one makes when screaming in their sleep, only to awaken and realize that the reality is worse than the dream.

I am torn apart. My heart is crushed and seems to pour out pain like a crushed grape pours out wine.

People get tired of hearing pain, but it is all that comes from my heart sometimes.

Sometimes there is Joy and Peace, but mostly there is agony.

Except when I am in the Presence of God. God I feel like Saul, needing music to make the pain, the rejection of God go away.

A soul torn apart. Is that really what you want from me God?

Longing, Loneliness, Pain, the hollowness of empty arms. How can this be your will O Lord?

Yeah, I know the answers from the Bible. I am Bible College trained. I know what the Bible says. I respect the Word of God.

But how does it change the way, the way I feel.

Faith is not based on feelings. It is based on truth.

What happens when the truth of agony seems to overrule the truth of God? What is more real?

My pain? God's Truth? What do I do with what I am experiencing?

It is honestly hard to tell in the midst of agony.

Like Peter not recognizing Jesus on the sea of Galilee, Sometimes, I have a hard time recognizing Jesus on the seas of my life.

Save me Jesus! He reaches out His hand, but sometimes it is not enough.

Everything passes away. Or hopes, our dreams, our possessions. What is truly valuable? Think about that.

Every time we are confronted with death, a funeral of a loved on or friend, what are we really here for?

Our work? friends? To have a bigger house? A better car? Or is is something larger than ourselves?

It has to be. Otherwise we live in vain.

Lovers and Marrieds, love passionately. Don't take your mate for granted. Dear God do not worship them, but love them as your most prized on earth.

Make amends. Don't hold grudges. Life is too short.

Love deeply, live passionately, care endlessly.

You may not have another shot at this life. In fact I guarantee you will not.

Time will move faster the older you will get. It will disappear even as you are looking at it.

Please use it wisely.

You only have this one shot at life. Make it count.

Another Kansas song to thing about.

Love you all. -Moose

ARTIST: Kansas
COMPOSER: Kerry Livgren
TITLE: Dust in the Wind

Lyrics and Chords
[Intro riff: / C Cmaj7 Csus2 C / Asus2 Asus4 Am Asus2 /
/ Csus2 C Cmaj7 Csus2 / Am Asus2 Asus4 Am / ]

I close my eyes
Only for a moment, then the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes, a curiosity
Dust in the wind
All they are is dust in the wind

/ C G Am - / G Dm Am - / 1st / 2nd / / /

Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind, ohh

Now, don't hang on
Nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
Dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind